"If there is a god, I want to hit him as hard as I can.""Hannya" Kawashima who experienced cancer now

Akiyoshi Kawashima (40) of the comedy duo "Hannya" who had an operation for kidney cancer in 2015. Cancer was found on the night of his proposal to his wife, and he felt like he was rolling off the climax of his life. He is also focusing on disseminating his own experiences, such as publishing "Hannya Kawashima's laughing cancer survivor" that spells out what he learned through his illness, but for Mr. Kawashima, cancer is What is it? He expressed his thoughts.

He was found to have cancer in November 2014. I planned a hot spring trip with the intention of proposing to my wife, who I was dating at the time.

I researched in advance that the bag would be more pleasing than the ring, so I bought the bag and hid it in the car, and I was ready for the day.

When my wife was taking a bath, I took the bag from the car and waited in the room. At that time, I received an email. It was from a doctor who was indebted to me.

Just like buying a bag, I had another preparation for marriage, or something I was doing. I had a medical examination saying, "I'm getting married, so let's check my body."

"Please come to the hospital with your parents and manager next time."

This is not just a thing. When I called the teacher immediately, he said, "In fact, I suspect that I have kidney cancer." I simply thought, "Why is this timing?" If there is a god, I want to hit him as hard as I can. I felt like that.

"I will die." I thought intuitively. I immediately searched for kidney cancer on my mobile phone. I'm always interested in scary information, rather than bad information. When that happened, the thought of "I'm dying" dominated my head.

Then it can't be helped to get married anymore. Let's stop this proposal. The baby also stayed in his wife's stomach, but it's better not to have this child anymore. I thought that too.

I think it was about 10 minutes, but during that time I felt like I was at the bottom of her life. While doing so, my wife came out of the bath.

I had a terrible face and was asked "What happened?" I didn't mean to say it, but I said it because I was overwhelmed.

Then my wife didn't cry and said, "I'm glad." And he said, "The hungry child found me. It's an angel child." The moment I heard that word, another feeling arose, and I felt like I was pulled up from the bottom.

However, of course, there were conflicts after that. I have cancer in myself. Moreover, this moment of progressiveness and living now may be spreading more and more. It may have spread from the lymph to the whole body now. "I wonder if I will die." I always had this feeling.

After repeated examinations from there, it has been 7 years since the operation. For the time being, five years is said to be one break, and I managed to overcome that.

It was an uneasy day, but the people around me usually treated me to spend it. I feel this was great.

I want to live normally even if I get sick. I want to be normal. Even if it's not that, I'm always thinking about illness, so I want to forget about illness when I'm slow.

It may be a difficult feeling, but the people around me naturally snuggled up to it. I'm really grateful for this.

Actually, with my partner Kanada (Satoshi), it was the worst mood before I got sick, or it was a time when I was rubbing until the last minute of dissolution.

It doesn't go well with each other and we can't find a direction. It's always a fight with the material that should be the basis of the combination, so it's difficult to move forward.

Kaneda was in a situation where he didn't want to do it anymore, but I found my cancer there. I may die. It may disappear. So they thought about each other again and acknowledged each other there.

It may be easier to understand if there was something like that, such as being told in some words or talking about something like this, but since it's not that type over there (laughs), little by little in my usual attitude. Is it included?

But, it doesn't change that way, but he cares about it. That sense of distance saved me a lot and I was grateful.

Of course, my wife was worried, but she said she wouldn't bring it to the front.

For example, he gave me a new ginger that I got from my friend's father at the table as a side dish, but in fact it seems that my friend's father gave it because I can expect a good flow against cancer. is.

However, he didn't say "it seems to be good for cancer", but just "because I got it from my friend's father".

It may be a very confusing statement, but I think it made me feel very complicated when I was told that the new ginger was "good for cancer".

It's a small and delicate place, but it's just that. My wife knew that and did it. If you think so, you will be more thankful. Thank you.

It's really hard to get cancer, and I'm still worried. However, I also feel that everything has changed 180 degrees since I got cancer. Is it possible to start anew?

Until now, I've done the work in front of me anyway. This does not mean to let it flow properly, but of course I do my best one by one. However, there was no such thing as repeating what was in front of me and welcoming tomorrow, or what I wanted to do from there.

What may happen when you get cancer. With that in mind, I decided to take on the challenge of 100% what I can do.

It's like my daughter found cancer, so I got a childcare qualification so that I could return that feeling to my daughter, and I originally liked games, but I also entered the world of e-sports. .. If anything happens, it's a way of life that you won't regret. I came to be aware of it.

However, it's too difficult to keep running at full speed every day like that, and it's a reasonable balance, I feel like I'm doing it while watching the time.

And every time I talk about it in such interviews, I remind myself of my thoughts when I got sick and the time since then, and reminded me of the fundamental thought that "I just need to be alive." And bite it. I am also allowed to do such a thing.

Also, this is a feeling as a gein, but I was not good at free talk, but since a few years ago I have been giving a lot of lectures on cancer, and that feeling has changed. I came.

I talk for 60 to 90 minutes in one lecture by myself, but it would be boring for the customers to talk about everything seriously, and I talk for that much time while creating a place where people can have fun and laugh. I think this is where I have clearly improved my skills as a gein.

There were many seniors who were surprised when I heard that I was giving a lecture, and my partner was directly worried about "Is it okay?" (Laughs).

Illness is really hard. It's not easy either. However, in my case, I felt a lot of gratitude for that, and it also broadened my range as a gein. It may not apply to everyone, but if you can feel something from it. With that in mind, I continue to give lectures and publish this book.

However, even though I can still give lectures, the question of whether I can speak perfectly fluently is "?" (Laughs).

It's a 60-minute one-on-one game with no escape. Originally, I'm the type who suddenly says strange things, but no one fixes it.

Recently, I've come to realize that I've made a strange mistake now, but even if I feel that kind of discomfort, I can't help but push forward. From there, I will continue to talk powerfully and make things that I did not do. I learned that technique (laughs).

(Photo by Masao Nakanishi)

■ Akiyoshi Kawashima

Born January 20, 1982. Born in Tokyo. NSC Tokyo school 10th grade. He formed a comedy duo "Hannya" in 2005 with Satoshi Kanada. His synchronization is "Oriental Radio", "Fruit Punch" and others. And so on. He attracted attention with his own game called "Zukudanzunbungun Game", and made a name for himself by appearing on Fuji TV's "Bakusho Red Carpet". He turned out in 14 years that he had kidney cancer. He proposes to his wife at the same time and finds out his wife's pregnancy. In 15 years, his eldest daughter was born. On February 18th, he published "Hannya Kawashima's Comedy Cancer Survivor" (Fusosha Publishing Co., Ltd.), which spelled out what he learned from his fight against illness.